It's not easy being in a relationship....much less to truly know the other one and accept them as they are, with all their flaws and baggage....

   The fear of being rejected.....well.....

    To truly love the each other we need to know the truth about each ohter,  even if it's not so easy to take.

    The toughest thing for me was to decide to be with someone for good, the idea that  this is it, this is the man i'm going to spend my life with, to decide that i will make the effort to stay, to work things out and not to run off the minute there is a problem, it's very difficult for me...

    It always fascinates me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all...Nothing....It hurts so much... 

   When i feel that somenone is going to leave me, i have a tendancy to break up first, before i get to hear the whole thing... 

    Here it is....one more, one less....When i think that it's over, then i'll never see him again like this, well....yes....i'll bump into him or meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we have never been together, then, slowly we'll think of eachother.....and less, and less, until we forget each other completely.....almost...

   Always the same for me: break up, break down,

                                       drink up, fool around,

meet one guy then another, f*** around to forget the one and only...

     Then after a few months of total emptiness, start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere, and after two years of loneliness, meet a new love, and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well.

     There's a moment in life when you can't recover anymore from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you 60 % of the time....well....you still can't live without him.

    And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right into your face...well...you'll love his sneezes, more than anyone else's kisses ..